Skip to main content

Another Year Ahead.

IMG_2949

I'll never forget the first year of sending my oldest son to school. I was literally sick with fear and worry. 

“Am I doing the right thing?

Should I keep him home one more year?

Should I go all-in on the homeschool thing?

What if this is the worst decision I’ve ever made?”

You know, the gamut of questions we ask ourselves through every facet of parenting. 

The whole summer before he started I asked myself these questions and as we neared the first day I would retreat to the shower each night to cry buckets so that he wouldn’t see me. 

I knew in my gut what he needed, and that what we were led to was a direct answer to prayer. But how could I send my precious child into the big wide world without me? How could a 6 year old get through a whole day without his mommy? As my social one, he was so excited, but it seemed impossible for me to get through. 

Fast forward 3 years and the same scenario hit when sending my youngest. That time with even more dread, as he was very shy, a major homebody and a momma’s boy in every single way. Unlike his brother, he was not excited. We were both very much not excited. 

My youngest’s first day is honestly still hard for me to talk about. It was probably one of the most difficult things I’ve been through as a mom - simply because I had no babies at home anymore. When I walked into an empty house after dropping them off at school, everything changed. And boy did I feel it.

It was my first taste of letting go. Their first taste of independence. Necessary, good things that proved to be the very best decision we’ve ever made for both of them. 

But man. 

It wasn’t easy. In fact, it was downright gut-wrenching. 

The Lord taught me so much about trust in those years especially. But had we not pushed them (and me, especially me) outside of our comfort zones, they would have missed out on so much that God had planned for them - their experiences, their friendships, their growth of faith - all things they cherish deeply! And I would have missed out on the blessing of experiencing God in a whole new way.

Parenting is hard. Decisions will make you crazy, knowing what you decide will determine the trajectory of their lives. From the minute they enter the world you’re faced with them. And honestly the social media culture just intensifies the doubt of those decisions - I’m sure all the newborn mommas can all give a resounding “AMEN!” (Trust me, I remember the days. I never saw so many “expert” first-time mommas in my life. Whew-wee!)

The decisions are never going to go away. If anything, they are more frequent and difficult as our children grow. But what makes them manageable is prayer. Completely surrendering my will to God’s. 

He already knows the plans for my boys! Plans to prosper them! To give them a hope and a future! (Jeremiah 29:11) He loves them more than I could ever imagine and as much as I want to protect them, I am limited in my ability. But God isn’t! He is with them wherever they go. 

I am so thankful for that promise or else I would be a literal basket case. No like, for real. Ya girl would be Mayor of Melt Down Town without the peace Jesus gives me in the day-to-day.

Though those tough “first” years are behind us, I still dread back-to-school. It’s forever my least favorite day of the year. They are always so excited to get back, but with every "first day" I'm reminded that the days of raising my boys are limited. And well, we just don't like to even think about that, so let's forget I even said anything! But truly, even in the gloom of sending them back, I’m continually reminded year after year of the faithfulness of God to me, my husband, and our boys. 

Where He grows my children, He comforts me. Where He protects my children, He encourages me. Where He leads my children, He sustains me. 

Take heart, fellow mommas. Our babies are going to be okay. And you will be too. 


I am a modern day homemaker with a passion for family, cooking, celebrating, decorating, travel, and memory making! The Lord has blessed me with the desires of my heart in my husband and our two sons. We recently built our dream home and cultivating a loving and happy haven for my family is where I find so much joy.

Comments

  1. Well said. It's never easy to see them progress to the next stage, but God is always on top of it.

    ReplyDelete
  2. Thank you for this post, Whitney ♥️ I’m currently struggling with all the decisions and I needed this reminder of the Lord’s faithfulness.

    ReplyDelete
  3. My oldest just moved into college this past Sunday. I'm learning to trust God in a whole new way. It's what we do as parents--raise them to love and serve Jesus.

    It just goes so fast!

    ReplyDelete
  4. Parenting is something not learn it comes from inside do what you feel like as per your child behavior

    ReplyDelete
  5. You are fantastic. You're truly like an angel that created this outstanding things as well as created it to your visitors. Your blog site is best, consisting of web content design. This ability resembles a professional. Can you inform me your abilities, also? I'm so interested. mouse click the following website page

    ReplyDelete
  6. Gracias por proporcionar la excelente publicación de blog, brinda información útil sobre viajes con moda. Lee mas..!

    ReplyDelete
  7. The need for more legitimate hacking companies are rising each passing day because of the magnitude of scams being run on the Internet. I know what I went through before I was able to contact Osecybersailing to work on my case after getting scammed multiple times and trying to retrieve back my lost investment funds. After I have invested $670k usd with a fraudulent crypto investment company and i lost everything in the space of one month and got scammed again and again trying to find a solution which wasn't easy to come by given the circumstances that brought about the incident, getting scammed multiple times is never a good experience for anyone involved which was what exactly happened to me when I got scammed investing into crypto currency. Many posing on the Internet as hacking companies aren't really what they are because most of them are scammers waiting for a prey to devour, I got referred to reach out to Osecybersailing through a friend and after I investigated about their legitimacy I came across many of their testimony from their satisfied clients that got their lost investment funds retrieved working with this legitimate and evergreen hacking institute which also changed my story helping me retrieve back my lost investment funds. Many of the testimony really were saying great and worthy things about how the company saved them from financial loss, I decided to hire them after many consideration and they didn't disappoint me by making the choice of choosing them after what I have experienced lately trying to get my funds back from the scammers. They proved they can be trusted with the recovery of lost investment funds which is why I wrote this down for other victims of scam who wishes to ever retrieve back their lost investment funds to let Osecybersailing solve their case, they're worthy and has what it takes to restore back your funds and peace of mind. If you also wish to check your partner Whatsapp conversation to know if he/she is cheating then Osecybersailing is the best team for you.
    If you find yourself lost in the depths of lost Bitcoin, facebook and Whatsapp hacking to catch your cheating partner, let Osecybersailing's team guide you towards the light of redemption.
    Facebook page: Osecybersailing
    Email: osecybersailing@cyberservices.com

    ReplyDelete

Post a Comment

May the Lord bless you and keep you safe today! Thanks for the comment, friends! :)