School.

Get ready for a novelette! 

When Levi was a newborn, I remember seeing Back-to-School commercials, holding him in my arms, and bawling. The thought of him leaving me one day was almost too much to bear! Crazy, I know, but I'm irrational like that. You should know this about me by now. 

Six beautiful years have passed and the time has finally come. Tomorrow, Levi is headed off to first grade without me. My stomach hurts, my heart feels broken, and if you knew how many tears I've shed you'd bake me a cake. (I like chocolate and strawberry and .... who are we kidding? It's cake. I like it all.) 

So....why not continue homeschool? 

Homeschooling the little years (Pre-K & Kinder) is something God laid on my heart a long time ago and I'm forever grateful for those 2 precious school years at home with Levi. We both took away SO MUCH from it and now my passion for that call God has on me for my children is even greater - I could chat about it for hours! But alas, there is a time for everything. Even a time for leaving Mommy. And for Levi, a child who thrives on relationship and craves social settings, it's time. 

I will say that homeschool is never off the table for us. I'll also say that I've struggled more with this decision than any other part of parenting, going back and forth again and again...and again. But, after so much prayer, we feel it's important to explore both options and see where the most flourishing takes place (spiritually, academically, socially) and what works best for our family dynamic. I am excited to see what this school year looks like for us and we are confident that the Lord has Levi exactly where he needs to be. 

Sweet boy can not wait! That makes it a tad bit easier .... I think? Maybe? Prayers for Levi greatly appreciated. Prayers for Mommy desperately needed! 

Oh, and any words of encouragement are seriously desired since my plan for the day tomorrow is to hide in a corner cramming cheesecake down my throat, crying into Levi's favorite blanket, and obsessing over any words of wisdom you dear people may impart upon me. Oh, and stalker-circling the school until 3:15. Duh.