Wednesday, November 21, 2012

The Early Hours.

Hobbling through the house in the 4am hour, rubbing my eyes and feeling my way to the nursery.  Stepping on super heroes and tripping over teething toys.  Preparing a bottle with one eye open and dripping formula on the floor.  I'm exhausted, I'm weary, and all I want is to crawl back into my warm bed.  And then I reach down and scoop up my baby and all my needs slip away.  I rock him, I kiss him, I feed him, I pray over him.  And nearly every night, I'm moved to tears.

It's in the still of the night that I'm most overcome with gratefulness for my babies.

With the silence comes gratitude.

With the dark comes response.

I cherish those stilled hours.  While the rest of the house sleeps, I have some moments of solitude where I can really focus.  Where I can silence my heart before the Lord and be still.  Where I can see clearly without the daily distractions that cloud my vision.  Where I can cover my family in prayer and truly revere my God. 

Rocking my youngest as he eats his bottle, coos softly, and strokes my cheek is one of the most peaceful feelings in my life.  I know these days don't last forever and I try to savor them as much as possible.  I also know that the Lord gives me these moments not simply because my baby is hungry, because I need them. 

To bond with my baby - just mommy and him.

To have moments of clarity in my otherwise foggy brain.

And most importantly, to have that precious time in communion with my Lord.

As I make my way back to our bedroom, I can see clearly.  No stumbling.  No tripping.  No grumbling or complaining.

My heart is full and peace overflows.

The early hours are hard.  But, I wouldn't miss out on them for the world.







6 comments:

  1. Those were wonderful, treasured moments for me, as tired as I was, I was so very grateful to have them. And really does go by so fast. I was up in the middle of the night yesterday because he was not feeling well and the memories came back to me of those first few months...a lot of work, but I would not change the experience for anything!

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  2. This is exactly how I feel. I pray for my family in those moments more than any other time during day.

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  3. I loved this. <3 I'll be doing this all over again come March and my hope is to savor those moments. They didn't last long with Tommy and I know they'll fly by with Jacob too. What a precious gift it is to be a mommy.

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  4. Loved reading this. Made those precious memories come right back for me!

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  5. It was so nice to read this. So often I'm grumpy with my lack of sleep and forget to cherish those early morning feedings. Thank you!

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  6. Yes, with my first I definitely didn't appreciate those night feedings. He began sleeping through the night early on. With my second I did cherish those quiet nights and she didn't sleep through the night for quite some time. Even in the past few months if she did wake I was kind of excited to hold her in the darkness. My third will be here soon! I will definitely try to remember to cherish the night feedings! Thanks for sharing and encouraging!

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