The parent/child relationship can't help but reflect that of our relationship with the Lord. Nearly every day, God gives me glimpses of how He feels for me, through my little Levi. I've always known that He loves me and that I could never fathom that type of love, but having children of my own has given me an entirely new perspective. I love that He draws us nearer to Him through the natural progression of life. I know He works differently and reveals Himself uniquely to each of His children, but He has used my children as an enormous tool in my personal spiritual walk.
The requests I get from Levi daily are bountiful. "Mommy, can you help me open this, please? Will you read this to me? Can I have this?" The sheer dependence and reliance he has on me has brought me to my knees numerous times as I realize God is asking for that same type of reliance on Him. Not for the same type of requests, of course, since I am fully capable of pouring my own bowl of cereal ... but the same concept. :) All too often it is easy for me take matters into my own hands and work them out for myself, when He shows me, through my own son, that I need help. I need guidance and I need advice from He who will lead me in the right direction - just like I aim to do for Levi. And ultimately, I need direction on how to point Levi in the right direction. Every single day.
The other evening Levi crawled into my lap and said, "Can I hold you"? (He thinks he's holding me when I hold him.) I smothered him in sugars and we cuddled together on the couch. I am so fortunate to have a two year old who asks to be held and lets me for long periods of time. I realize that's not the case for every mother, but Levi just loves to be in my lap. (I rocked him until he was almost two, so that is probably why. Oh, and how I do not regret that for a single nanosecond!) As I sat there and loved on my little lamb and soaked in every kiss, giggle and breath, I thought of how the Lord longs for the same from me. To sit. To be still. And to let Him hold me. He relishes in it and enjoys it because I am His child!
With age I know Levi will gain his independence and his self reliability and that is healthy and normal and great. I just pray that when he stops letting Mommy hold him, He runs to the arms of our Father .... knowing that the peace and love that he once felt in my lap is far superior in the presence of God.
And in the meantime, I'll be growing and running right along with him.