Two nights before my birthday, I told Husby to pull over so I could run in and get a pregnancy test. I honestly didn't think I was pregnant, but I just wanted to rule it out. I didn't "feel" pregnant and I honestly had zero hopes of seeing a line when I used the test. Husby and I decided when he started residency that we would begin praying about and trying for Baby Number 2 since we didn't know how long the journey would take. Much to our surprise, we were quickly blessed and I was in complete disbelief when the little line appeared.
"Um. Husby? Um. There's a line. Am I really pregnant?!"
He wrapped me in a bear hug, told me I was, and at about that time, Levi came walking in.
I saw his little angel face and burst into tears.
Immediately, I was overwhelmed with love for this little life inside of me and at the same time, feeling kind of sad for Weebie. I can't even explain the weird feelings I had rushing inside of me. Levi is SUCH a loving and people person and I know he will be thrilled to be a big brother, but in that instant, staring at his little face that didn't have a clue what was going on, it made me cry. And I don't really know why, because I know that he WANTS a sibling. Bad!! It's just that he's my baby. He's my tiny little baby and now he's quickly turning into a big boy. And it makes me cry.
Over the next couple of days we began explaining things to him and he seems to be as excited as we are about the whole thing. I know that there will be a lot of emotions over the course of the months ahead of us, and from what I gather, it's normal. I hope. I'm praying God gives me wisdom and direction on how to prepare Levi for the change ahead of us. He's my little lamb and I truly can not wait to watch him evolve into "big brother". He'll be amazing.
(Me, the night we found out. Smudged mascara and all.)
I told my parents and brother & family on my birthday. Best birthday gift EVER. (Thank you, God!) When they came over, I put a Big Brother shirt on Levi. My mom started jumping up and down and saying, "I KNEW YOU WERE PREGNANT!", and my Dad was thrilled, as well. I think everyone was half way seeing it coming and half way shocked. We told Husby's parents the same way, with the shirt, and they seemed to be pretty shocked as well. Mom, Hollie and my other sister-in-law Casey all had the exact initial response: they all thought I was pregnant and had just been having feelings about it all week. How bizarre is that, since even I didn't think I was?
I had a doctor's appointment the next week and it seems that as soon as my pregnancy was confirmed, the symptoms started hitting! I am so tired, all of the time. I have the most energy in the morning hours, but when late afternoon/evening hit, I am worthless. I am a night owl at heart, and have been going to sleep at 10 and 10:30 every night. It's like I can't get enough sleep. I have occasional bouts of nausea, but nothing bad. And nothing that has made me "sick". Praying it stays that way!
When I read my pregnancy test with Levi, I knew instantly that he was a boy. I mean, I just KNEW. With this sweet little thing, I have no feeling whatsoever! I just don't know! I told a friend that the best case scenario would be boy & girl twins because I just can't decide on what I hope this one is. Levi has made me so boy crazy that I would be thrilled with giving him a tiny brother, but I'm sure it would be great to have a girl, too. I just can't figure it out, but in all honesty, I really don't care. At all. I just pray I'm having a healthy, precious, happy little baby. Who could ask for anything more?!
I have had some cravings and they are pretty strange. I want salad at all hours of the day. I can't get enough of it. I also want salty snacks like Gardettos. I crave crunchy tacos with hot sauce and jalepenos almost every day. Actually, I've been putting jalepenos on everything. Nom Nom Nom!!
So, there are some details of what is going on with us and this tiny little love lamb inside of me. We are so excited for this thrilling new adventure before us and covet your prayers for my baby and pregnancy! Thank you so much, friends!