Thursday, August 18, 2011

Round Two.

Two nights before my birthday, I told Husby to pull over so I could run in and get a pregnancy test. I honestly didn't think I was pregnant, but I just wanted to rule it out. I didn't "feel" pregnant and I honestly had zero hopes of seeing a line when I used the test. Husby and I decided when he started residency that we would begin praying about and trying for Baby Number 2 since we didn't know how long the journey would take. Much to our surprise, we were quickly blessed and I was in complete disbelief when the little line appeared.

"Um. Husby? Um. There's a line. Am I really pregnant?!"

He wrapped me in a bear hug, told me I was, and at about that time, Levi came walking in.

I saw his little angel face and burst into tears.

Immediately, I was overwhelmed with love for this little life inside of me and at the same time, feeling kind of sad for Weebie. I can't even explain the weird feelings I had rushing inside of me. Levi is SUCH a loving and people person and I know he will be thrilled to be a big brother, but in that instant, staring at his little face that didn't have a clue what was going on, it made me cry. And I don't really know why, because I know that he WANTS a sibling. Bad!! It's just that he's my baby. He's my tiny little baby and now he's quickly turning into a big boy. And it makes me cry.

Over the next couple of days we began explaining things to him and he seems to be as excited as we are about the whole thing. I know that there will be a lot of emotions over the course of the months ahead of us, and from what I gather, it's normal. I hope. I'm praying God gives me wisdom and direction on how to prepare Levi for the change ahead of us. He's my little lamb and I truly can not wait to watch him evolve into "big brother". He'll be amazing.

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(Me, the night we found out. Smudged mascara and all.)

I told my parents and brother & family on my birthday. Best birthday gift EVER. (Thank you, God!) When they came over, I put a Big Brother shirt on Levi. My mom started jumping up and down and saying, "I KNEW YOU WERE PREGNANT!", and my Dad was thrilled, as well. I think everyone was half way seeing it coming and half way shocked. We told Husby's parents the same way, with the shirt, and they seemed to be pretty shocked as well. Mom, Hollie and my other sister-in-law Casey all had the exact initial response: they all thought I was pregnant and had just been having feelings about it all week. How bizarre is that, since even I didn't think I was?

I had a doctor's appointment the next week and it seems that as soon as my pregnancy was confirmed, the symptoms started hitting! I am so tired, all of the time. I have the most energy in the morning hours, but when late afternoon/evening hit, I am worthless. I am a night owl at heart, and have been going to sleep at 10 and 10:30 every night. It's like I can't get enough sleep. I have occasional bouts of nausea, but nothing bad. And nothing that has made me "sick". Praying it stays that way!

When I read my pregnancy test with Levi, I knew instantly that he was a boy. I mean, I just KNEW. With this sweet little thing, I have no feeling whatsoever! I just don't know! I told a friend that the best case scenario would be boy & girl twins because I just can't decide on what I hope this one is. Levi has made me so boy crazy that I would be thrilled with giving him a tiny brother, but I'm sure it would be great to have a girl, too. I just can't figure it out, but in all honesty, I really don't care. At all. I just pray I'm having a healthy, precious, happy little baby. Who could ask for anything more?!

I have had some cravings and they are pretty strange. I want salad at all hours of the day. I can't get enough of it. I also want salty snacks like Gardettos. I crave crunchy tacos with hot sauce and jalepenos almost every day. Actually, I've been putting jalepenos on everything. Nom Nom Nom!!

So, there are some details of what is going on with us and this tiny little love lamb inside of me. We are so excited for this thrilling new adventure before us and covet your prayers for my baby and pregnancy! Thank you so much, friends!

52 comments:

  1. congrats! praying for you!

    http://breatheandhush.blogspot.com/

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  2. I had so much fun reading stories from your pregnancy with Levi. I'm sure we're in for the same treat this time around!

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  3. How exciting!! Congrats to you all :]

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  4. Yay, the best birthday present ever!!! Congrats again Whitney!

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  5. Congratulations to you all! Very exciting news! I look forward to following along :) The best birthday present!

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  6. I am so excited for you, and just so excited about the news over all! Just the other day I was thinking about your blog, and wondering when you would have another baby. When I told my husband that you were pregnant, he was like "Cool! When are we going to have our second?" Hmm...good question. Anyway, very happy for you, congrats!

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  7. So exciting for you guys! Congrats!

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  8. Congratulations, how exciting, I'll be praying for you too! I am sure you will handle the whole thing with Godly wisdom, and Levi will take it in his stride.

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  9. I am so excited for your family!!! My guess is boy at this point, but that could change, keep giving us your "symptoms" So when are you due???

    I love me some babies!!

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  10. So excited to be sharing this journey with you! I've been struggling with broodiness again lately, but since I already have three children and my youngest is ony just two, I'm better off living vicariously though you :-)

    I've been reading your blog since you started it and you are such a lovely family. You deserve every blessing that comes your way and I am truly thrilled about your new little blessing.

    BTW, I had the same mix of feelings when I had my second. It is perfectly natural.

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  11. Congrats Whitney!! Hope you keep feeling great :)

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  12. I'm not preg but we are in the (long) process of adopting #2. So I get a lot of your feelings. Levi is going to be a great big brother. And you are going to be a busy but happy mama. What more could you ask for? :)

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  13. Congrats! I'm due with our second Valentine's Day and I've been having the same cravings - salads, spicy, and salty! Mmm! Praying the ickies won't last long for you so that you can enjoy it!

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  14. Oh HOORAY!!! So excited for pregnancy blog posts. :)

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  15. COngratulations, this is such wonderful news! :) What a blessing!!

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  16. Yay! So excited to hear how you're doing! The funny thing for me was that my pregnancy was exactly the same as the one with my son but felt remarkably the same, even though we're having a little girl! Hope you feel better, soon!

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  17. Oh yay!!!!! Congrats Whitney!! I've been waiting a long time for a second baby announcement from you lol

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  18. How exciting! Congratulations!

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  19. So exciting :) What a wonderful birthday present!!

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  20. So happy for your family! What a wonderful birthday present. Prayers for you and your new life.

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  21. yah! so happy for you! When I found out I was preggos with my 2nd my 1st was just a little over a year. I cried too!!!! but they are wonderful and being so close has been great!

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  22. Congratulations!! Levi is going to be a wonderful big brother :)

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  23. Congrats once again! Isnt it weird to crave spicy food? Shoot, I have been OBSESSIVELY trying to get my hubby to take me to my favorite carribean restaurant that is about 30 minutes away to no avail.
    I have had MAJOR heartburn issues w/ this little babe and hot sauce kills me! But I cant resist! Needless to say I will be sneaking over there tonight while he works late, muahaha.
    I'll be sure to pick up Tums on the way home too :p

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  24. congrats;
    i am so excited for you!
    ah levi; a big brother; how cute!!!

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  25. Congrats!!!! I am pregnant too (15 weeks along) and want salad at all hours of the day too! It was fun to read that that is one of your cravings too! Hope you have a smooth pregnancy!

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  26. I am so happy for you and your sweet little family! It seems like just the other day I stumbled upon your blog and you were pregnant with Weebie! Can't wait to follow this journey! :) Congrats!

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  27. Ahh! I am so, so happy for all of you! I know this is probably going to be such a silly thing, but I grew up in a family of 5 and we were never allowed to sit in a booth. Assuming you're not having twins, you'll have a family of four - perfect for booth sitting! :-) It's the little things.

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  28. Yay!!!!!!!!! Congrats Whitney!!! I feel like your emotions about Levi being a big brother are exactly what I picture my emotions being someday with Mason. So happy for you! Your family will be in my prayers!

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  29. Hehe. I follow you on twitter, and I remember you tweeted something about suddenly not wanting diet coke anymore, and when I read that I thought "hmm, maybe she's pregnant" !!!


    I'm very happy for you, congratulations!!

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  30. I know those feelings so well...but I had to deal with them when my first was only 4 months old and we were *SHOCKED* to discover I was pregnant again (um, can you say "not planned!"). As a mom of 2 littles now, I can reassure you that love multiplies, not divides. And you will one day wonder how you ever had a life without this second little baby. Yup, all normal, and all good! It's okay!!! :)

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  31. Congratulations on the new little one!

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  32. Very happy for your family! :)

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  33. This is so exciting! When are you due? I'm 14 weeks and so sure it's a girl--I may be wrong, but it's funny because none of my friends said they had a strong feeling about the gender!

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  34. It's so interesting that everyone I know or follow in the blog world has similar feelings of excitement for the new life but sadness for "taking away" from the first child. It's interesting and I wonder how I will feel when we one day decide to expand our family. Thank you for sharing so honestly.

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  35. Congrats!! Can't wait to see if you'll be buying pink or blue!! :)

    www.talesofayounghousewife.blogspot.com

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  36. Whitney I'm so excited for you! I can't wait to follow along on the journey :)

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  37. Awe Congrats! Im with you on the second baby boat too BTW. My Due date is St Patricks Day. I had almost the exact same thoughts as you. My first thought was the a M was 13 months 13 days when we found or little suprise, and I thought first thing that shes going to be 20 months when Baby arrives. It was ALL about her and how will this affect me! And Like you my body instantly responded to the news. I got nauseated that day and no signs of it stopping.

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  38. What exciting news! Congrats to your family!

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  39. i am so happy for you! i just burst into tears reading your reaction to seeing levi for the first time after taking the test. i had the same reaction and i really lost it when i saw hudson for the first time after hayes was born. it's such an amazing, overwhelming love. and the even more amazing thing is that you will love this baby just as much as you levi! don't you wonder how there can EVEN BE that much love inside of us? and doesn't it give you the slightest glimpse of the way our Father loves ALL OF US? sorry... i'm rambling now. but i just think it is all so wonderful. i'm thrilled for you, whitney, and can't wait to follow along on this journey!

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  40. "He wrapped me in a bear hug, told me I was, and at about that time, Levi came walking in." I love this line! Cherish it because there are too many times finding out your pregnant isn't a celebration....at FIRST!!!!!!!!!!!

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  41. Maybe the jalapenos mean he/she will have red hair. I went to the Target deli at least three times a week and got nachos with jalapenos and my little peanut turned out to be a fiery little red headed boy :)

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  42. I was concerned about my first son when I was pregnant with my second son, now its such a funny thought because at 22 and 19 they are best friends, so different yet so close. In fact, the saddest part about my oldest going to college and then moving across country to start his career was watching them say goodbye. You are giving Levi the best gift you could ever dream of. Congratulations , enjoy and take care!!

    tina

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  43. Yay!! When I was pregnant with Goober, I was obsessed with jalapenos and peppercinis! Quesadillas with nothing but peppers and cheese were eaten constantly!

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  44. Congrats!!!
    Here's something I read when I was pregnant with my 2nd child. It helped me "figure out" some of the feelings that came with it :)
    "As I hold your 2-year-old hand, basking in the glow of our magical
    relationship, I suddenly feel a kick from within, as if to remind me that
    our time alone is limited.
    And I wonder: How could I ever love another child as I love you?
    Then he is born, and I watch you.
    I watch the pain you feel at having to share me,
    as you've never shared me before.
    I hear you telling me in your own way,
    "Please love only me."
    And I hear myself telling you in mine,
    "I can't," knowing, in fact, that I never can again.
    You cry. I cry with you.
    I almost see our new baby as an intruder
    on the precious relationship we once shared.
    A relationship we can never quite have again.
    But then, barely noticing, I find myself attached to that new being, and
    feeling almost guilty.
    I'm afraid to let you see me enjoying him.
    -- as though I am betraying you.
    But then I notice your resentment change,
    first to curiosity, then to protectiveness,
    finally to genuine affection.
    More days pass, and we are settling into a new
    routine.
    The memory of days with just the two of us is fading fast.
    But something else is replacing those wonderful times we shared, just we
    two.
    There are new times -- only now, we are three.
    I watch the love between you grow, the way you look at each other, touch
    each other.
    I watch how he adores you -- as I have for so long.
    I see how excited you are by each of his new accomplishments.
    And I begin to realize that I haven't taken something from you, I've given
    something to you.
    I notice that I am no longer afraid to share my love openly with both of
    you.
    I find that my love for each of you is as different as you are, but equally
    strong.
    And my question is finally answered,
    to my amazement..
    Yes, I can love another child as much as I love you-- only differently.
    And although I realize that you may have to share my time, I now know you'll
    never share my love.
    There's enough of that for both of you
    -- you each have your own supply.
    I love you -- both and I thank you both for blessing my life."

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  45. Congrats. Can't wait to watch you on your second pregnancy.

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