I'll be the first to say it. I hate Back-to-School. It's sad, it means another year went by, and I like my children with me all the time. I just do.
This time last year I was an absolute wreck. For a solid month before school started I would disappear to the shower every single night and break down. It was the first time Levi would be apart from me, and I questioned everything. Was I doing the right thing? Would he thrive or not? Should I be homeschooling? Am I about to make the biggest mistake of my/his life? (I tend to get a bit theatrical when it comes to my children.) This was one of the most difficult times in my life. It was hard and sad and downright depressing. Thank the Lord for a level headed husband with his emotions in tact, encouraging me that these changes would bring good things.
Going into this school year is 100% different. I'm super sad summer is ending, and I still get a pit in my stomach thinking about Levi not being home with me, but I have absolute peace. I never once have doubted our decision this year for where Levi needs to be and he's counting down the days until he starts. He LOVES school and that makes me so, so happy. I'm thrilled God led us to a place that Levi not only enjoys, but where he thrives! And we're a week out and I haven't even shed a tear. (Yet.😉)
My hearts desire is to homeschool the little years, so I'll be starting Pre-K with little Ezra this year and he is so excited. And so am I. Those years spent homeschooling his brother are some of my sweetest memories. We are so thankful for God's faithfulness and His direction in our decisions, giving us assurance and peace along the way. I could never do this whole parenting gig without Him!
So, look out Back-to-School. I'm not letting you bring me down this year. 👊