Friday, March 15, 2013

I Hit A Wall.

I hit a wall the other day and just started to cry.

I mean, I didn't run into a wall and black my other eye or anything (but don't be surprised with the roll I'm on lately!) ... I'm speaking figuratively here.

I woke up and cried. I texted Husby at work and cried. I called my mom and cried. I just cried.

See, my boys and I have been sick for what seems like an eternity.  We were sick with various things for most of February, then I had a major neck injury that had me down for almost 2 weeks, and then we got sick again.  Levi and I have the sore throat/head junk (again), and Ezra had a scary high fever (up to 105) for a couple days with no explanation.  Husby has had to work for the past 20 days straight. TWENTY! He leaves at 5:30am and not back until 7pm-ish, sometimes later.  It's just been hard.  And exhausting.  And quite frankly, I was just tired.

I'm not one to hit walls.  I kind of just keep on trekking and smiling my way through things.  It takes a lot to get me "down".  But y'all .... this has been different.  Seeing my babies hurt, and not feeling well myself for weeks and weeks on end and enduring it alone for the most part, is flat out hard.

But you know what?

As soon as I stop and crack open the Word or spend a few moments in prayer, a peace washes over me.

When I stop and realize how grateful I am for these two babies TO care for, a smile stops my tears.

As I open the window and feel the warm sunshine, I know that health is on the horizon.

When I mark a day off the calendar, I am another day closer to Husby getting a day off.

Some days aren't fun.  Some days aren't easy. But, all days are a gift.  All days have purpose.

....

And God is faithful.

"Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest." Matthew 11:28

I pray I'm quick to run to the arms of the Lord to cast my burdens on Him instead of wallowing in the difficulties.  Oh human nature - it loves a good pity party every now and then! I'm just so grateful for the safe place I have in my precious husband and my to-the-rescue Mom to break down and let it all out to.  

Sometimes, a good cry is healing to the soul.

And a good cry, I had. :)

HERE'S TO HUSBY HAVING THE WEEKEND OFF AND BABIES ON THE MEND!!!!!!!!!!!!!





9 comments:

  1. Awww, I'm so sorry that you've had such a rough time but I'm happy that you all seem to be on the mend. I hope you have an awesome weekend all together :)

    Liane x

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  2. Oh Whitney! I am so sorry you're feeling so poorly. I KNOW how hard it can be with sick kids and a hubby who is gone a lot. My hubby has been traveling every single week since January...and it is so hard to not fall apart some days. Yesterday I hit the wall, too. All the BUILT UP STRESS bubbled over and I COMPLETELY FELL APART because I was late to an exercise class I really wanted to take. Yep, a ridiculous exercise class pushed me over the edge and I cried and cried and cried, didn't go to class because I was so flustered, and then came home and crashed on the couch for almost an hour and a half. I never nap...but the Lord quieted my soul and I woke up refreshed and able to cope again. All this to say, you are NOT alone. Enjoy your weekend to the fullest and give yourself the grace to hit the wall every now and then. You will bounce back!

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  3. Feeling sick is the worst and for some reason it is so easy to get depressed and hopeless. I am glad you can find solace and a smile! Spring is on the way and with that less sickness and more sunshine - keep trekking.

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  4. When my son was close to Ezra's age he got some sort of virus with high fevers like that. I remember being on the phone with his doc one night just on the brink of losing it. I know how scary it can be. So sorry y'all have all been sick. Praying that spring brings healthier days.

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  5. I know I hardly comment, but I just wanted to let you know that God is good and this too shall pass. Our kids are teens now and Hubby works such better hours. I have walked in your shoes, it is hard. It does get better.

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  6. Aww hope you are all feeling better soon!!

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