I've felt convicted lately about my time management. Specifically, time spent on my phone. More specifically, time spent on Facebook and Twitter. A couple of weeks ago, as I was going about my daily routine and something happened, I immediately thought, "Oh! I should share that on Facebook!" ... and it was right then and there that the Lord said to me loud and clear, "Whitney! You are conversing with Facebook more than you are conversing with Me."
And I felt like I'd been socked in the stomach.
The other evening, after a movie with my Husby, we started talking about what time period we'd like to be transported to. I instantly said the 1950's and part of my reasoning was that it was a much simpler time and technology hadn't yet overtaken society. Funny that this is something I long for, considering I was spending so much of my time using that blasted technology. If I want it so much, then what am I doing wasting my time perusing Facebook and Twitter multiple times a day? Talk about a giant waste of time.
I mean, really. Do I really care what my elementary school acquaintance that I haven't seen in 20 years just ate for a snack before bed? Nope. But I could tell you verbatim what she did that day! Ha! Lunacy!
Now I do think there are great sides to social media. I think it's brilliant and can absolutely be used for good. And also, just good fun entertainment. I love being able to keep in touch with people I wouldn't otherwise keep up with. And I love the peek into day-to-day lives that it gives. It's just that anything that comes between us and the Lord is an idol .... and it was becoming something I was NOT controlling myself with. And when I realized that I was spending more time updating my status throughout the day than I was prayer, it was a giant eye-opener. A conviction. Something I am in the process of fixing.
It's scary to come to a sudden realization like that. I don't like that something as trivial as Facebook/Twitter had a greater hold on me than I realized. Often times, I'd open up Facebook in the morning before thanking God for the day. Now if that is not terrifying, I'm not sure what is. I'm abhorrently ashamed!
For me. Personally and for myself. (This isn't a shame-on-you if you spend hours on Facebook post. Your convictions are not mine and vice versa. This is an honest look into my personal life and journey. For me. And only me.)
I dread the day Levi and our future child(ren) feel the need to be on social media all hours of the day. For crying out loud, I am a 27 year old wife and mother, updating five+ times a day - I can't imagine being a teen! I want to fix this now so that I can pave the way and be an example to Levi. I want to set ground rules now so that we are not floundering when he is old enough for the responsibility of a phone. (And my phone has such a hold on me that I just typed "for the responsibility of an iPhone!!")
Forget Crackberry ... more like Heroiphone. (Ba-da-CHING!)
I haven't shut my Facebook down or am getting off of it completely, I am just toning it down and prioritizing my moments. I'm sure there will be days I update more than others and times I waste a half-hour catching up .... but not multiple times a day. I've had a spiritual awakening in my heart and it's not something I am taking lightly this time. I have cut my time back considerably over the week and I can't tell you how GREAT it feels. The longer I'm away, the less I care about it. I want to look back on these "good old days" when I'm a little old lady knowing that I didn't waste my energy and time on anything unnecessary. I want to see where the Lord refined me and pulled me in closer to Himself. This is definitely one of those times.
I'm a work in progress. And will be until He calls me home.