Tuesday, October 18, 2011

On The Pregnancy Front!

I am a couple weeks into my second trimester and I am slowly but surely getting my energy back. I thought this day would never come! I had forgotten just HOW tired growing a little person makes a girl, but boy howdy, it was a rough couple of months and I am thrilled to welcome back some much-needed energy.

My baby love is the size of an orange and I felt his first little kicks the other day!! It was THE most precious feeling in the world. I mean, there is just nothing like it. Nothing at all. I sit and wonder who he is all the time. Who is this sweet little angel that the Lord has given to us? What will he be like? Who will he look like? Oh, this baby!

My appetite is back, too, which is nice. It was bizarre not wanting anything to eat ever. That's definitely not the case these days. I don't have any huge "cravings", but sometimes something will strike me and I'll really want it. I went 14 weeks without gaining any weight and then after spending some time with my folks last week, I came home and had gained two pounds. THANKS, MOM AND DAD! I blame the crazy amounts of cream gravy and fried food I consumed. Oopsy! (Oh, but it was worth every LB. YUM.)

We've been tossing around a couple of names, but one is really sticking out to me. Before we knew that he is (more than likely) a boy, I could not come up with ANY girl names. Not ONE! The only name I could come up with was this particular little boy name. It kept creeping up every single time I thought of this little angel. Maybe this name was "meant to be"! :) Anyway, it's adorable and I'll be excited if that is what we settle on. There is so much pressure in naming a child. I mean, it's his name for the rest of his life! We have his middle name set in stone, though. I'm excited!

Levi points to the ultrasound photos hanging on the 'fridge all the time and says, "that's my baby brother!!!" with such excitement. I am just so blessed. I can not wait to see the little relationship they form and have for life. I was picturing them as one another's best men at each other's wedding the other day and almost lost it. Oh, my BOYS! They sure have captured their Mommy's hearts. My cup runneth over.

I know that every baby is a miracle and such a gift, but I think that I am realizing that more deeply with this pregnancy. With my first, it was "baby baby cutesy baby - we've got to do this - we've got to do that" and completely jumping into everything with such blinders. I was just thrilled to be pregnant and finally start living my dream of being a Mommy, that I didn't truly stop and realize every day, like I am with this one, what an absolute blessing and enormous responsibility this is. This child was chosen for us from the beginning of time, and the honor of God entrusting him and Levi with us will just bring me to my knees. I don't even feel worthy.

Husby and I feel such a responsibility of raising this little baby boys to be strong and mighty men of God - something this world is absolutely lacking and desperately needs. But the fact that God trusts us to do so? Well, that's just the most humbling feeling in the world. I trust my carpet will be worn smooth from seeking wisdom. :)

Several people have asked me if I am disappointed that I'm not having a girl. Honestly, the answer is a big ole "not at all". (And that question hurts my feelings, because ... gosh, y'all just don't know how I feel about my baby boys. And how could you be disappointed over a LIFE inside of you?). Before I was married, I had my life planned out and always said I wanted two children: a boy first and then a girl. Then when the Lord gave me Levi, my heart was completely changed. I didn't have that feeling of "my next one better be a girl" or "when I have a girl" or anything like that. My heart turned to "the blessing of another CHILD" and whatever that baby may be is exactly what the Lord has ordained. Boy or girl, I just want for us what HE wants for us. And my heart means that one hundred percent.

I remember driving into our neighborhood when Levi was only a couple months old and I looked at Husby and said, "I kind of feel like we're going to have another boy ... and you know what, I kind of really hope we do." He smiled and agreed with me. My heart didn't only change concerning the gender of my children, but also the number. I was always dead set on two, and after Levi, we're just not sure now what the plan is for us. It's something we always approach prayerfully and never "this is the way it's going to be". I have no idea what He has in store for my family in the coming years, and if that is for us to have and parent more children - then bring it on! And if He gives us a little girl one day, then we will be thrilled, of course, because most every parent would love to experience each gender and that will be another precious little life given graciously to us.

But right now, y'all, I'm rejoicing head over heels because of these baby boys. And I couldn't be more grateful.

Okay, I'm off to cut a slice of pineapple carrot bread and pour a glass of orange juice. Oh guys, this is the best bread you've ever laid lips on! I just might justify two pieces tonight. :)

18 comments:

  1. This is such a sweet post. I'm a couple weeks behind you in my pregnancy and haven't gotten my appetite or energy back, so it's promising that you are just now getting it. Maybe that means in a couple weeks I will too!
    The baby name thing is so funny to me because I cannot come up with ANY boys names, only girl names which makes me hope we are having another girl (it was the same way with my first pregnancy). And because we already have a girl, everyone keeps telling me that they hope this one is a boy. I do not. I really want another girl and am annoyed that people keep assuming I have to have one of each. However, this most likely won't be our last child so either way is fine with me, but the pressure to have a boy to go with my girl is about 0%, so I can totally relate to you being fine with two boys. Anyway, I love reading about your pregnancy (probably because we are due around the same time), so keep the posts coming!

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  2. Such a sweet post. Thank you for sharing!

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  3. You are such an inspiration in the way you live your life and your faith in God. Thank you for sharing your refreshing views on life and family. I'm old enough to be your mama, but I learn something new from you all the time. Yours is my most favorite blog. Can't wait to learn Levi's little brother's name!

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  4. I just had my 2nd baby boy back on September 3rd and feel the same as you about my boys. They are almost exactly 2 years and 7 months apart and I can't wait to see their relationship form and a friendship grow! We're also thinking we'll probably have 1 more... and boy or girl I will be thrilled because I'll know it's what God wants and is entrusting to us. And I'm so excited to read your blog and share this season of life with you (a new cyber friend!) as we seek to raise our boys in His likeness. =)

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  5. My first is a boy so when they told me my second was a boy, I was actually a bit disappointed. I was one of those who wanted a girl next (I am ashamed to admit this.) But, this is JUST as God intended! My two boys are 22 months apart and they are the BEST of friends! I am thrilled with having two buddies in our household! And our little girl for child number 3 is just what made our family whole. God really does have this whole thing figured out! :)

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  6. I love this post! Before I had my son, I would've said the same thing you did. But now that he's in my life, I just adore being a boy's mom. I hope and prayer that someday he will have a brother to be his partner in crime.

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  7. I hear you on the gender question. I get so frustrated when people ask me what I want to have. I just want a healthy, happy baby! Another girl, great. A boy... still just as great! But we are in this weird place of having a name for a girl, but no idea for a nursery theme, to having a nursery theme for a boy but no idea on a name. We thought we had that pegged with our first, but now we both are doubting. This is why I love finding out at the half way point, I still have months to decide

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  8. I love this post! I have already gotten that same question (from my own family!) and it really bothered me. I can't wait to have two boys running around. I hadn't thought of them being best men in each other's weddings yet though! So fun! I'm glad you're getting your energy back. I can't wait to hear the name AND see what you pick out for the nursery! How can you top or even match Levi's??

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  9. Oh, I know how you feel about those little boys. I have a four year old little boy, and he melts my heart on a regular basis. There is nothing like it. We are in the process of adopting a girl, but oh my, was it hard to "pick" a gender. We prayed and prayed, but in the end, my son kept saying "I want a sister", and we decided that we would have a boy and a girl. A strong young man of God, and a sweet young woman of God who is protected by her older brother. :) Children are a blessing no matter what their gender. I hate that some people think that a boy is somehow a consolation prize.

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  10. This post really hit home for me and inspired me to type out a quick post about my two sons.

    http://jennsblondeambition.blogspot.com/2011/10/two-boys.html

    I don't feel incomplete because I don't have a daughter. I could get pregnant tomorrow with another boy and nothing would make me happier!

    I'm happy to hear you're feeling better and are able to eat a little more!

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  11. I'm glad you brought up the gender thing. When I was pregnant with Eli, everyone kept asking me if I wanted a girl. I didn't... I just wanted a child. Now everyone asks if we want the next one to be a girl or a boy. First, I'm not even sure it we want a 'next one' or (more importantly) if that is what God is planning for us. Second, I could never be disappointed with either one!

    You brought tears to my eyes thinking about your boys being each others best friends, best men, best accountability in their faith. Such sweetness!

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  12. Thanks for this, Whitney! Such a refreshing outlook for a young family of today! God bless you and your family!

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  13. Lovely post! Children truly are a gift from the Lord. He know us better than we know ourselves, and He also knows what's best for us AND our families.

    Recipe?!?!

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  14. I don't think it really sunk in until I was carrying #3 that time passes oh so quickly, and to make every moment count. So now I do my best to cherish the tantrums, the whining, and the messes- you only get a few short years of this and then they are out on their own for good! I remind myself whenever I get moody about the fact that I haven't had a single second to myself all day long, that one day soon I will have ALL the time in the world for just DH and me. So I need to savor these moments with my littles!

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  15. This is so sweet! Before Peanut was born, and even before we knew she was a girl, we had the perfect girl name but couldn't agree (all the way to the end) on a boy's name! I wonder if that's a subconscious thing!

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  16. I'm so happy to read this post!! I have two boys, 23 months apart, and they are the light of my life. When I was pregnant with my second, though I would have been happy either way, I really really wanted another boy! Now they are 4 and 2 years old and the best of friends. They just don't know life without each other and even though there is fighting and rough-housing and general chaos--they are built-in-buddies and stick together. We found out a few weeks ago, that our third baby will be a girl, and I'm thrilled, but I wouldn't have minded another little boy, either. Children aren't defined by their gender. They're all precious, little individuals with different personalities. I am mind-blown every day by how different my boys are!
    Congratulations!! You have so many adventures and blessings ahead of you!

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  17. I am just so happy for you. A brother for Levi will be an amazing gift. I bet they will be best of friends. :)

    I'm not sure if you ever received it but awhile back I emailed you about my personal struggles to have children. I asked you to pray for me. Guess what? A week after I sent that email I found out I was pregnant! And a week after that a birth mother picked us for an adoption! So God has answered my prayers x2 and I have more then one on the way!

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  18. dear lord for a woman of god you are so judgemental of others......

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