Friday, July 1, 2011

Happy 6.

Husby has had the last two months off between graduation and the start of residency and it has been pure bliss. I have forgotten what it's like to not have him around, but starting today, I am about to get a cold hard reminder. Today marks the first day of his three year residency training. Also, today is our six year anniversary.

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The other evening, Husby went to put Levi to bed and as I heard him in there reading Weebie his Bible story, I sat on the couch and burst into tears. All the memories and moments we have made over the past couple of months all came rushing to my mind and I realized that our cherished vacation has reached it's end. Husby came out and as he walked past me to go back to his seat on the couch, he gave me a kiss on the head and told me he loved me.

I scream cried, "I L-L-LOVE YOU.... TOOOOOOO" as the tears flew out every which way.

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Looking concerned, Husby asked, "what is WRONG, honey", as he quickly took a seat beside me and put his arms around me. I buried my head in his chest and said between sobs, "I ... don't ... want ... you ... to ... lllllleeeaaaaavvvvvvveeee."

He quietly held me close, kissed my head and said, "I know, honey. I don't want to start back, either."

By this time, I was a blubbering idiot.

"I just want you to quit and stay home with me and Levi every day for the rest of our lives."

"Whitney, we couldn't survive."

"I don't care! I just want to be together! That's all that matters to me!" ... tears tears sobs sobs.

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As he sat and comforted me and told me how fast these three years are going to go, I burst into tears again.

"But I don't WANT it to go fast because then Levi will be FIVE......!!!" Uncontrollable bawling. "I just want him to stay a baby and I just want you to be home with us!!!!!"

Wow. This was getting a bit absurd.

Husby chuckled quietly and just listened, whispering, "I know, honey. I know."

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A few minutes later, Levi started crying, "MOMMY!" I ran in his room and laid down next to him. He grabbed my hand and clasped it tightly into his and held my arm close to his chest like he usually holds Ernie. In the dark, still of the night, he said, "Mommy? I love you to the moon and back."

Well, here we go again. WATER. WORKS.

I cried and sobbed and held my baby as close as I possibly could. When I tried moving my hand, he grabbed it and pulled it back as tight as he could until he fell into a deep sleep.

My emotions had run the gamut.

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Looking back on the whole scenario, I realize how dramatic I was being, but it's truly exactly what I felt. There is no person on the face of this earth that I love being with more than I love being with Husby. Days, life, moments are just more beautiful with him. He truly is my heart. And Levi? Time just passes too quickly. Even though I am with him all day, every day, and have been for the entirety of his life, I still feel like time has slipped away. Right before my very eyes. It's just not fair.

The next day, Husby had to leave for orientation and Levi and I fell back into our old routine. I thought about the night before and though I was sad Husby wasn't home, I felt fine and not as emotional about our lazy days together being over. As they say, all good things must come to an end. Right about then, the doorbell rang and this came in the mail:

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Husby had ordered me a stainless steel cookie cutter of Levi's ACTUAL hand! He had it traced and made into a cookie cutter. If that's not the sweetest thing on earth, I'm not sure what is. Levi's name, age and a sweet personal message are engraved on the side and it was the perfect gift that arrived exactly when I needed it most.

My boys melt my heart.

Looking back over these six years - the biggest, best, most life changing years of my life, I am overwhelmed with God's goodness, His faithfulness, and His countless blessings He has poured into our marriage. He divinely appointed the union of Husby and me, and together, we are living out our dreams.

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25 comments:

  1. You are so sweet. I can totally relate because I often get caught up in the moment and feel completely flooded by emotions.

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  2. Happy anniversary! What a wonderful gift! I've never heard of that before. Love it. :)

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  3. Love the picture of you looking at your husband, so very sweet. And what a fabulous idea for the cookie cutter! Where did he get it?

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  4. Happy anniversary! Husbands are most definitely a treasure from the Lord! :)

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  5. I am about the cry just reading this post; your hubby is so sweet & I love the idea of the cookie cutter!!

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  6. Happy anniversary! Love the cookie cutter -- Your wedding looks like it was the most perfect day! :)

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  7. That was so so sweet! Happy Anniversary, and thanks for sharing! selphpartyof3.blogspot.com

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  8. what an incredibly sweet post!
    Happy Anniversary!
    I can relate -- my husband travels a LOT of work and I miss him often. I quickly get use to him being home with me and then I am generally an emotional mess when it is time for him to get back into his routine
    I love that he got you the cookie cutter -- what an amazingly sweet gift!

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  9. Happy Anniversary! Um, why couldn't June have lasted forever???

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  10. Such a sweet post! Happy anniversary!!!

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  11. I'm not sure if it is because I am pregnant again or if it is because I feel the same way, or even if it's that I feel like I know you.....but I cried reading this post! That is the sweetest moments I think you have shared. Love is the best thing in the world and I am happy to know you have found your sole mate! Happy Anniversary!

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  12. Beautiful post! Happy Anniversary and wishing you many, many more wonderful memories together :)

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  13. Happy Anniversary! What a great post. I am sure you'll still have tons of great memories even if your hubby isn't always right there. :)

    Cabin Fever in Vermont

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  14. Happy Anniversary! I know how much you enjoyed having your husband home. I tend to get melancholy, sad, downright dramatic when things like that come to an end, but one thing I've learned is that God always has something else wonderful around the corner. Although, I'm kind of like you when it comes to my baby getting bigger. Somedays I just want to freeze time. Enjoy your anniversary!

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  15. Happy Anniversary, and may I just applaud your hubby. That is the CUTEST gift EVER!

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  16. Happy Anniversary! Everyone has crazy irrational days.. Hang in there! xo

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  17. Happy Anniversary!!! Here's to a lifetime of happiness for both of you. I love your blog and have become a follower.

    Suzelle
    www.craftsandmorebysuzelle.blogspot.com

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  18. Happy anniversary, you two! :)

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  19. Happy Anniversary! I would love to know where he purchased the cookie cutter! They would make great gifts!

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  20. Gah! Blubbering idiot...I feel the same way. There is SO MUCH love you pour out in your words, it's exactly how I feel too...I loved this post. And the cookie cutter! What a sweet gift!!! Beyond precious.

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  21. Well, first..happy anniversary! Secondly, those pictures of your wedding are incredible! You had one heck of a shindig! And, finally, you're going to get through this 3 year residency the same way that you've gotten through everything else that you've faced with his schooling so far in your marriage...with the grace of God. He's big enough, and strong enough to carry you through.

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  22. awwww This is so sweet! I wish we all didn't have to work or worry about money and could just stay home together and be a family...but that aint life :( ugh

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  23. Happy Anniversary! I have always loved your wedding pictures..they're beautiful <3

    Love Levi's cookie cutter - what a fun gift!

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  24. Such a sweet post! <3 Happy anniversary! I cannot wait for my wedding day and I am sure going to be emotional after dating for over 7 years when our wedding day comes!

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  25. oh y'all are so sweet and I understand the feelings of wanting time to pass for certain things but not wanting it to because the babies just grow so fast! happy happy anniversary!! your marriage is such a blessing for Levi and others!

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